When I read posts like this, it just reminds me of how much I sometimes feel like I'm missing out. I've been agnostic for a very long time. I neither hate nor love religion in general. My wife and I married almost 3 years ago and I dutifully follow her every Saturday night to mass. I read the creed, I sing the hymns and I even help take up the collection from time to time. I enjoy the experience, but when I start allowing myself the luxury of maybe....possibly trying to believe, every inch of my psychology rises up and fights like hell.
Since it's the Lenten season, I'm think maybe I can find something from Aquinas that perhaps I missed all those years ago in college. That was the advice recently offered to me as Aquinas has been known to make very rational arguments for the existence of God. I know there will never be found a smoking gun that proves conclusively that God exists (that's where the faith part comes in, which is another problem.) Still, I'm open to testing myself. I may look into RCIA when it starts up again after Easter.